25 January 2014
02 November 2013
Flowers to Show our Love
As we walked to the shore, the sound of the waves filled the air of silence between us. Raging waters threatened to drench our feet but we were unmindful. We were there for a reason.
Each whispering a prayer for James, my children and I took turns throwing flowers and loose petals into the sea. We had a bag full of them, you see.
The wind roared loudly... The sky turned gloomy… The waves raged to shore… Perhaps heaven heard us.
Time may have eased the pain and helped us mend the broken pieces of our fragile lives but… We still cope with grief one day at a time until now… even after almost 9 long years.
Posted by: Bing Yap at 3:59 PM 2 POINTS OF VIEW
Labels: child's Grief, Coping, coping with grief, dealing with pain, Family, family love, finding closure, gone too soon, James, loss of a father, Loss of a Husband, picking up the pieces after a tragic loss, remembering
20 October 2012
Bridge of Yonder (Haiku)
Posted by: Bing Yap at 2:31 PM 24 POINTS OF VIEW
Labels: haiku, high school memories, memories, poetry, remembering, thursday poets rally
09 April 2011
Remembrance
promises lie in their wake


Posted by: Bing Yap at 11:02 AM 49 POINTS OF VIEW
Labels: Coping, Loss of a Husband, picking up the pieces after a tragic loss, poetry, poetry awards, remembering, thursday poets rally
05 April 2011
I Finally Did It


Posted by: Bing Yap at 9:05 PM 12 POINTS OF VIEW
Labels: Loss of a Husband, picking up the pieces after a tragic loss, poetry, poetry potluck, remembering
11 September 2009
In Memory of James and The Thousands of People Who Lost their Lives 8 Years Ago
James would have turned 44 today. My kids lit a candle and offered their prayers for him early this morning. It's good to know that after 4 years, they still remember his birthday. It's also good to know that I sense no pain in them anymore. Maybe they still miss him but this tragedy has not derailed their lives. As I said before, there are no longer "what if's" and "what-would-have-been". My children are moving towards the future and have not looked back for a long time. We talk of "tomorrow" now and it warms my heart to know that they are looking forward to all the challenges and changes ahead of us.
Also on this day 8 years ago, thousands of people lost their lives in several acts of senseless violence in the US. These people left behind thousands of grieving families and friends who, to this day, couldn't make sense of what really happened that day.
Let us all join in prayer as we remember James on his birthday and all the victims of terrorism around the world, particularly those who lost their lives on September 11, 2001. May they all rest in peace!
Mommy says you're safe now,
in a beautiful place called heaven.
We had your favorite dinner tonight
I ate it all up...
... Even though I don't like carrots
I learned how to swim this summer
I can even open my eyes
when I'm under water
Can't you see me?
I started Kindergarten this year
I carry around a picture of us in my Blue's Clues Lunch Box
You are the greatest Daddy
I can swing on the swing by myself ...
Even though I miss you pushing me
Can't you see me?
I miss how you used to tickle me
Tickle my belly
My belly hurts
I try not to cry
Mommy says it's okay
I know you don't like it when I cry
Never wanted me to be sad
I try daddy but it hurts
Is it true you're not coming home
Maybe some day
I can visit you in Heaven okay?
It's time for me to go to bed now
I sleep with the light on.
Just in case you come home,
and kiss me good-night.
I love you so much.
I miss you Daddy
Blessings to all,
Posted by: Bing Yap at 11:29 AM 11 POINTS OF VIEW
Labels: 9-11, Bereavement, child's Grief, James' birthday, moving on, prayer request, remembering, road to recovery, sudden tragic loss