I Am Scared
"People deal too much with the negative,with what is wrong.
Why not try and see positive things,
to just touch those things
and make them bloom?"
-Thich Nhat Hanh-
Why not try and see positive things,
to just touch those things
and make them bloom?"
-Thich Nhat Hanh-
It's not easy. Sometimes it also gets dark here. Sometimes, no matter how hard I try, I just can't get out of it.
I fear of...
The future... I can't seem to see myself 5 or 10 years from now. I don't know where I will be. And the feeling that plans don't happen according to my will is pervasive. It never left me. Why can't I just completely "let go and let God?"
The present... Everything about the present scares me. What if I fail my kids? What if I can no longer go on? What if I am still in denial of my life's present circumstances? What if reality is clouded by my own illusions?
I hate it when I am not in control. But all the things that are happening tell me that there is a greater power out there. Sometimes I just have to believe and trust that everything will end well... for the good of everyone. I should not let "what I cannot do" interfere with "what I can do."
Writing about this helps. In fact, I feel much better now that I have defined what bothers me. I know where these anxieties are coming from. The sun has not stopped shining though. I just have to embrace its warmth again.
a pocketful of sunshine to everyone!!!
Blessings to all
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10 POINTS OF VIEW:
Hello Bing ((((HUGS)))) I am all too familiar with that dark place. Sometimes we have to go there to ponder our place in this big scary world . . . it is safer than the unknown.
Ask God to renew your spirit and give you the guidance you need to find your way out of the darkness . . . don't be afraid to follow.
I recently decided to put all my faith in God, asked for that guidance and he led me to what can possibly be the happiest time of my life with a wonderful man who seems to be so perfect for me.
You'll be in my prayers sweetie . . . Gina
GINA, you are so sweet. yes, these are fleeting moments of darkness. i don't want to stay long in this place. like you, i have put everything in God's hands.
i am so glad to know that you finally found a wonderful man. you deserve to be happy again, GINA.
thank you for the prayers. i really need them right now.
GOD BLESS!
Bing =)
Only by facing the dark, do you ever get to the light...or the sunshine!! :)
Just remember, fears are normal, and you are a strong woman who has withstood so much already, you can do this!!
Take care,
Kat
KAT, i am soooooooo happy to hear from you. i hope you are enjoying your vacation. yes, i can do this KAT. thanks for continuing to believe in me.
miss you! =)
Keep walking, because there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Love the quote above.
hi TIKNO, thanks for the encouraging words. don't worry, this is just a phase. i no longer stay long in the dark. by acknowledging and defining the fears, i have prepared myself to move on again.
There's always something to be happy and grateful about..just focus on them and you'll be fine. have a good weekend!
MARITES, thanks for the reminder. yes, life is beautiful and there is always something good around us to be grateful about. in fact, there are so many of them. i'm feeling much better now actually.
good and nice post for you friend!!!
thanks GLOBAL WARMING...=)
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