i leave all pain and tears behind
as i walk towards the rising sun
confidently i take my stride
knowing all is well and fine
lessons learned by heart
regrets, i have none
expect, i'd rather not
with acceptance i shall
embrace life as it is
i am stronger...
i am better...
i am me...
© Bing (PinkLady) 2011
Posted for Poetry Potluck: Rules, Regulations and Laws...
Yesterday marked the 6th year anniversary of James' disappearance. My children and I honored him through a Catholic mass offered in his memory. For the first time since 2005, I did not go through any melancholic episode. Instead, my heart was filled with gratitude for having been part of James' short-lived existence and for my own resilience. I felt the blessedness of life itself as my 3 kids wrapped their arms around me. Tears rolled down my face not because I felt sorry for myself but because I was truly THANKFUL for the way things turned out.
If you have lived, take thankfully the past.
~John Dryden
It has been a long blogging hiatus for me here and I was pleasantly surprised to read:
which was written by esteemed poet
Someone is Special at
Jingle Poetry.
SiS, your kind words really touched my heart and I thank you for that. In reply to your article, let me quote an old comment I posted here also in reply to a fellow blogger's encouraging words, to wit:
"I started this blog with the hope of inspiring others and helping them deal with the overwhelming aftermath of a sudden loss or tragedy in the family. I love to write. I went through my grief process by writing in my journal every single emotion that I felt and every single milestone in my journey towards healing. I didn't get here easily, you know. Believe me, I had all kinds of criticisms for staying so long in my grief. But taking my time to heal was all worth it. Grief is a normal and natural response to any loss. Have no fear and let it run free. It is OK not to feel OK. Express it and then release it.
I created this blog to share the light I have seen at the end of the tunnel with everyone who is in the same journey. The comments I have received from all of you validated that I have somehow achieved my purpose."
SiS, although I would have easily chosen
pink as my background color because of my pseudonym, I instead opted for
red as I felt that, at this stage of my life, this color defines me more now - i.e., intense, fearless, enthusiastic and passionate about life.
I would also like to thank everyone in Jingle's community who voted for me for The Celebrate Poet of 2010 Award.
