Ranting For The Last Time

After blaming my laptop ("Windows problem" they said) and two reformats later (to no avail), SmartBro has finally admitted an equipment problem on their part, whatever that means. FINALLY, they are sending their technical people to my house tomorrow to look into whatever re-configuration that needs to be done. After almost 30 days of malfunction, we MIGHT be able to FINALLY figure out why- why oh why!!!- my laptop works in all internet stations and cafes except in my own house. A week ago, we brought my unit to a friend's house which is being served by the same provider (SmartBro broadband) and - wow!- it worked there.

My no-show in this blog has caused its page rank to drop. That shouldn't really bother me because I am not into commercial blogging. But then, every blogger would know how difficult it is to achieve a google page rank and a site's rise gives one a sense of achievement or self-fulfillment.

My melancholic attacks in the past were effectively cut short by my blogging. This blog became my sanctuary... my so-called "happy pill."

I tried to get a new connection with another provider but after 2 weeks of waiting, they came back to inform us that they allegedly ran out of premium lines in my area and offered us the option of obtaining internet connection at the speed of dial up connection. Tough luck!!! Oh well, such is life.

Anyway, I don't want to waste any more of my time ranting about SmartBro's lousy service. I hope that after tomorrow, I will be back in full swing.

Blessings to all,

Lousy SmartBro Connection

Things don't always go our way. Just when we thought we have planned out everything, something goes wrong. Almost always!

I was so excited to go back to blogging after my short vacation. There was too much sunshine to share. My mind was full of happy ideas and memories to write about. I was simply ecstatic to start writing again. I even promised a special band in Manila that I will feature them in my blog after they impressed me with their music and great performance.

But soon after I set foot in my house, the anticipation was drowned by frustration. I could not connect to the internet. That was 20 days ago. Until now, the "technical problem" has not been fixed. When I called up my provider tonight, I was asked to send an email to their customer service so I could be prioritized. What??? I was there on the phone talking to their representative and she still wants me to write them??? So tell me SmartBro, what was the use of recording my telephone call then??? Is this what a loyal customer deserves? Look at my latest bill closely to see that I am way ahead in my payment.

To my brother (my "utol") in the US who has shown concern over my blogs, I want you to know that I really appreciate the nightly reminder to update. But as I have explained to you, I'm the type who writes spontaneously from my own laptop. Doing it this way - that is, writing it in my laptop, saving it and transferring the material to my son's computer to be able to publish it - needs some getting used to on my part. I type then I publish. That's it. I am a one laptop/pc-type of person. That's just the way I am (in all aspects). And I can't write at work. The only time I can blog is at night when I'm relaxing at home. That is also my way of coping with and letting go of the day's stress. Now I have been deprived of that.

Blessings to all,

Addicted to Blogging

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I don't really have much time to blog right now. Still same problem with my internet connection. But when I went to check my friend Kat's site at Candles Crafts and Whatnot, I found this interesting test and decided to try it myself.

So I'm 71% addicted to blogging! Can you imagine how frustrating this is for me not to be able to blog and blogsurf the way I used to??? GRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!



Blessings to all,

Of Living and Loving... and Moving On

"If you're not afraid

Of what love brings
Then endings are beginnings
Of beautiful things...
Its a chance you'll take
A chance you'll win
If someone's gonna find you
First you gotta let them in
Coz love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now its easy letting go "
[One Hello, Randy Crawford]

Sometimes you wonder why all these things are happening to you. In desperation, you ask high heavens why you are being punished. Tragedy after tragedy. Pain after pain. Isn't there a better way of living your life? There are times when you ask yourself why you keep on committing the same mistakes. Haven't you learned your lesson?

But then you sit back and think... Each experience has made you a better person. Each pain has made you more resilient. Have you wondered why?

Yes, this blog was all about pain. It was meant to release all pent up emotions I had for the untimely loss of a husband who meant the world to me. This was supposed to convey the hatred that built up within all corners of my heart. This was supposed to be a memorial for him.

In the end, it became the journal of my life's journey without him... the pain, the struggle, the coping. And then my resurgence.

Just when I thought the sun refused to shine, light suddenly appeared.

I am not a hypocrite. I must admit that amidst the tragedy and pain, I still hoped for a better outcome. Surely I was not molded into the kind of person I am now for nothing. I have learned to count my blessings.

I guess things really happen for a reason. You just have to open up yourself and accept everything that is happening in your life without judgment. I have had missteps and slips, I must admit. But I kept my faith and remained hopeful that things would get better. They always do, right? Of course, we don't stay in a rut for long. Nobody does. You just have to keep on believing. And that's what I did. I'm so glad I did!

Sunshine, sweet sunshine! Thank you for bringing back laughter, light and a big smile into my life.


[Bro thank you for this video suggestion]




Blessings to all,

Of Heart and Soul

This has been long overdue. I am so sorry for the delay in posting an award that meant a lot to me.

Sometime in March, I got a message from Flo of Soulful Scribbles that she gave me an award. When I checked it out, I was so touched to know that she created it specially for three (3) bloggers who have inspired her. In her own words, this is what she had to say about the Heart and Soul Award --

"A few weeks ago, Ally of In the Eyes of the Beholder bestowed the Lemonade Award on me. I, in turn, am supposed to give this award to ten blogs of my choice, but I am not yet ready. What I have found through my blog readings are blogs that have touched, moved, and inspired me in so many ways. I would like to give them a special award coming from me–the Heart and Soul Award, for extraordinary bloggers who have bared their hearts and souls to give inspiration to others."

Flo then proceeded to give the special rules in giving out this award:

"If you receive this award, please spread the love!

- Create a post about it, and make sure to include the logo.
- Nominate three blogs that have touched or inspired you, and made an impact in your life.
- Add a link to your nominees’ blogs in your post and inform them about the award.
- Go to http://heartandsoulaward.wordpress.com and leave the URLs of the 3 blogs you have nominated."

Now, as you can see from my blogroll, I have a long list of blogs that have truly inspired and moved me. It is quite difficult to choose only 3 of them. But rules are rules and this award means so much to me. Thus, I have decided to give it to 3 special bloggers who have truly touched my heart and inspired me not only with their blogs but with their beautiful friendship. They are:

KAT of

JANET of Dolly's Daily Diary

KARA of

Again, thank you FLO for this special award. I would also like to thank Kat, Janet and Kara for the beautiful friendship they have given me.






Blessings to all,