Of Living and Loving... and Moving On

"If you're not afraid

Of what love brings
Then endings are beginnings
Of beautiful things...
Its a chance you'll take
A chance you'll win
If someone's gonna find you
First you gotta let them in
Coz love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now its easy letting go "
[One Hello, Randy Crawford]

Sometimes you wonder why all these things are happening to you. In desperation, you ask high heavens why you are being punished. Tragedy after tragedy. Pain after pain. Isn't there a better way of living your life? There are times when you ask yourself why you keep on committing the same mistakes. Haven't you learned your lesson?

But then you sit back and think... Each experience has made you a better person. Each pain has made you more resilient. Have you wondered why?

Yes, this blog was all about pain. It was meant to release all pent up emotions I had for the untimely loss of a husband who meant the world to me. This was supposed to convey the hatred that built up within all corners of my heart. This was supposed to be a memorial for him.

In the end, it became the journal of my life's journey without him... the pain, the struggle, the coping. And then my resurgence.

Just when I thought the sun refused to shine, light suddenly appeared.

I am not a hypocrite. I must admit that amidst the tragedy and pain, I still hoped for a better outcome. Surely I was not molded into the kind of person I am now for nothing. I have learned to count my blessings.

I guess things really happen for a reason. You just have to open up yourself and accept everything that is happening in your life without judgment. I have had missteps and slips, I must admit. But I kept my faith and remained hopeful that things would get better. They always do, right? Of course, we don't stay in a rut for long. Nobody does. You just have to keep on believing. And that's what I did. I'm so glad I did!

Sunshine, sweet sunshine! Thank you for bringing back laughter, light and a big smile into my life.


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Blessings to all,