The moment I saw this wall sign, I knew I had to post it here. It caught my eye because it accurately describes what is going on in my life right now.
Not everyone gets a second chance. There are some who are lucky enough to get second chances in life but they either refuse to acknowledge it or fail to seize the special moment out of FEAR.
I chose to seize mine.
Like so many, I put my life on hold for so long out of fear of all the uncertainties. The "status quo" became my comfort zone and I refused to venture out of it. I avoided stirring up conflict that would "rock the boat", so to speak. I tried to please everyone to deserve my stay in what I considered a "smooth sailing" life.
But deep inside, I knew I was in the wrong place. My heart yearned for more. It craved for growth. It was hungry for change. It cried out to be finally attended to. So that's exactly what I did.
In July (that heart-wrenching difficult month), I declared that I am leaving my job of 13 years (effective September, that is). Together with that declaration, I severed my affiliation with anyone who could influence my personal decisions as far as "justice for James" is concerned. I declared that I would no longer be afraid of anything or anyone. When I finally met with the Senior Partner of our office last August, I told him that I've kept my silence for 4 years already and it's time for me to make my own decisions without worrying about the repercussion on people I work with. He understood what I meant. I then turned over my duties as Managing Partner and Office Manager, a position I held since 2003 in this 32-year-old prestigious office.
For people who are close to me, they know what other privileges I gave up and the ties I severed with that decision. Was it hard for me? Surprisingly, it came as a relief.
Careerwise, I am starting over again. Things happen for a reason and the new opportunity presented itself to me. I grabbed the chance. It just felt so right.
I can't believe it has been a year now since I started this blog. Also exactly a year ago, the SUN found its way into my life.
The Sun shone oh-so-brightly again in my life these past two weeks. I wish I can share that happiness with everyone. If only I can give a piece of my heart to each of you...